Bla Bla Bla

Surprising Invoice, New People, Mystery Series, Baking Pumpkin Pie and Buy Sewing Machine

September 12, 2017

Four days off after really long hours of work. I don't know but I feel like nowadays I kinda work really hard, but in reality, I just did the job as usual. Not to mention, I still love to do the dishes at home, but 100% I am giving up to make everything tidy.


Actually before off days, I plan to go to swimming pool and practice, but then I change my mind because I couldn't decide to go in the morning or late afternoon. And I always wake up when the sun is above my head and it was too hot to go outside.

Surprising Invoice
After watching how Christina made some homemade seafood dishes, I asked my little brother to go to market and buy some chicken, or fish or squid or cuttlefish. Now I'm craving for food again. 

But short story, I ended up in ATM Machine, empty handed and just decided to pay my electricity bill for September 2017. And it was like... surprised!!! Because usually I paid around IDR 800,000 or if we save some energy, will be around IDR 400,000 to 500,000 but this time is only IDR 122,000 so something must be wrong with this.

I will not argue, or whatever. I'm still confuse why is it not 'normal' ... 
But anyway, this means I have extra money this month. 

New People
Hey, we have new people in office this week. I'm so happy. Looking forward to work together with them as they seems really nice person to work with and plus side, they are guys. I feel like I can work better with guys than girls. 

I do better with girls in term of talking about juicy news or celebrity or shopping.

Yes, excuse me for being too honest.

I know these people are straight from ICT major, so I will have to catch up with them, It's okay I have time to learn.

Mystery Series
Hallmark literally blew my mind. I had no idea that they do have mysteries series, light mystery cases with woman as the detective. Remind me of Jane Marple's series or Nancy Drew. I just love ir so much, I couldn't stop streaming for another episode.

So far I'd finished Garage Sale Mystery, and on my way to finished Murder, She baked and Aurora Teagarden series. 

Baking Pumpkin Pie

I miss hang out and have lunch in Anchor!!! Their southern (American) food are good one, because the owner is from there. Best pumpkin pie and everything. Seriously, even the food there. A bit expensive, but so worth it.

I decided to bake my own pumpkin pie. mine, taste like my usual Milk Tart recipe but this time with pumpkin. Not a total failure, since it tastes good but just mine doesn't have the right texture yet.

Buy Sewing Machine

Ah, because I have extra money from electricity bill this month, I treated myself  with new portable sewing machine.

I don't know how to sew yet. But I have goals to make some dresses I wanted to wear, make dresses from scratch (buy the fabrics, etc). I can't wait. 


So, these few things are the update this week.
I'm looking forward to share you some good news about me, my friends or ehm.. my someone important.


Kasih.



Design

Rancangan Limpah Kebaikan

August 07, 2017


When everyone in life fails you, disappoints you, He is the one who would never do that to you.


When my heart has been hurt
Teach me to give the heart to forgive
When my life has been judged
Teach me to give love heart

Forgive me, if I feel unable to forgive those who sins against me

Like the Father's heart
Forgiving, loving, no strings attached.

Thank you, for having me. 
Love, Kasih.

Bla Bla Bla

Heartbreak is Our National Anthem

August 05, 2017


Am I going to ruin every relationship I have like Taylor Swift? Of course not... But these few weeks has been depressing to me lately. I mean, my heart was broken knowing that Chester is gone and now some of my friends are dealing with their breakup.

I got emo, real emo last year because had to break up. I realize, even if you didn't actually have the real feelings, breaking up just... sucks.

Well, I know exactly what they feel, so I am like, Let it out girls....

So, yeah it's been depressing to hear the exact same story over and over again.

Wish life can just be Kodaline and Payung Teduh.

Ah, that remind me, Payung Teduh (my favorite, Indie-Jazz-Keroncong-Folk) just release their new MV. So, indie. Just uber driver with his passengers. Low budget and just consist everything I love in their MV, simplicity.

Again, Less is more.

Check the official MV and the great cover by Tereza.







AKAD (Covenant/ Agreement/ Contract)



Betapa bahagianya hatiku saat Ku duduk berdua denganmu

(How happy my heart when i sit together with you)

Berjalan bersamamu, Menarilah denganku
(Walk with you, please dance with me)


Namun bila hari ini adalah yang terakhir
(but if today is a last day)

Namun ku tetap bahagia
(but i will still be happy)

Selalu kusyukuri
(I always be gratefull)

Begitulah adanya
(That's how it is)

Dan bila kau ingin sendiri

(and if you want to be left alone)

Cepat cepatlah sampaikan kepadaku
(Hurry, hurry up tell me)

Agar ku tak berharap
(So I'm not hoping)

Dan buat kau bersedih

(and make you sad)

Bila nanti saatnya t’lah tiba

(When the time is coming)

Kuingin kau menjadi istriku

(i want you to be my wife)

Berjalan bersamamu dalam teriknya hujan

(Walk with me under the blazing rain)

Berlarian kesana-kemari dan tertawa

(Running around and laughing)


Namun bila saat nanti senja tiba
(But when the next twilight arrive)

Izinkanku menjaga dirimu
(Let me take care of you)

Berdua menikmati pelukan diujung waktu
(Together enjoying hugs at the end of time)


Sudikah kau temani diriku ?
(Will you stay with me?)

Sudikah kau menjadi temanku?
(Will you be my best friend?)

Sudikah kau menjadi ... istriku?
( Will you be ... my wife?)



__

I know it's cheesy AF, but whatever, many more to come. Hahaha



Love,


Kasih.

Design

The One Who Believe In You

July 28, 2017


When you fall in love (Ehm, let's just say it's the L word - and pardon me for being cheesy), have you ever feel like you want to be your better self each days? And constantly think to enhance yourself in order to deserve the other person.

I remember when I had girl talks in Pizza Hut, there was older lady next to our table, tried to feed her kids. Two sons, seems great. The older brother seemed to be impatient with his mother tried to calmed his autistic little brother. That lady always looked back at us whenever his little son being hyperactive, like asked for our permission because disturbing the perfect environment for talk. Needless to say, we didn't care because he's a kid and we enjoyed our talk about boys too much that anything didn't bother us.

"Like, he's more than me in this way, this way and this way," my friend said.
"Well, I think we should learn and study more so we can be the woman in their standard, you know..'" I replied.

Then after feed her sons, the lady went to cashier and presumably paid her bills. She then turned to our table and said hello to us.

She said, " I couldn't help but overheard you girls talking, I would like to advise you girls to find your equal when it comes to men you want to be serious with in future. Education is important, so if you have good education background, always find a men with at least same education background as you. If he have higher education background, then you have to improve yourself so you can be his equal."

Then we said thank you to her.

Not everyday, well, never. There was never someone before from the next table would come and advised you and your friend about men. This was our first time and we both perfectly agree with this lady.



Last night I watched some girl's vlog when she still in high school. She wanted to live far away from home and everybody against her, except her dad who will give her the word of encouragement and support. 

She worked at three different job to pay her tuition and books and one day she left with nothing. Not even single penny to buy something to eat. She drank water for 5 days straights. I teared up a bit when I heard her telling this story.

She later got some dinner from her boarding house's owner. She said she is forever grateful.

She added that she didn't even bother to ask for her family for help with money and her problems because her family would always have negative thoughts or said,"Why you live far away from us? That's your own fault."

Well, she went there far away from her family, because she wanted to go to high school. She didn't want to stay in village and become just another girl who didn't finish high school and get married early. 

She's now happily married with the man who happen always encourage her to do what she loves, plus two minions on the pictures. Ah, that would be just... perfect goals.

I get it when someone don't believe in you and you are too afraid to start it alone by yourself. I must say, if I didn't have support from my dad to learn English, for example, I won't be able to write this, have my perfect grade, or even communicate with bubu (one of the most important person).





From my mom. I learn how to love without even asking for anything in return. To love itself give you ... ehm kind of happiness and satisfaction (again, I know I'm being cheesy again - Sorry, but not sorry - because it's true). And from dad, at least my dad, I learned to forgive and to be brave. He taught me a lot about courage. Probably if I'm someone else's daughter I won't be this brave.

To be honest, sometimes I am afraid, but I don't want to think. Think makes you over analyze and be insecure about any risk. As for me, I just do. Well, it doesn't matter it will be right or wrong in the end, I just do. If you're right then it's good, if you're wrong just be brave to say you're wrong and you're sorry. 


But anyway, today post isn't to tell you about my mom or dad. Nowadays, I start to believe again, in sketching. I already buried that dreams away as no one ever support me. Literally, no one ever did. (Except that admission staff from Rafles Design Institute and my elementary school mates who always asked me to design their wedding gown when we grow up).

I miss sketching so much.

But my main goal is to design and at least capable of using sewing machine to make my own dress. It's like revenge time for doing what I wanted to do since I was little girl.

I'm not a princess, not an army, I am just a girl who loves to design.

So, when someone said it to me that I can totally do it, the one who believe in me isn't only them, but also me.

Thank you, and probably many more sketch to come. I hope you enjoy.


Kasih Letsoin



Personal Thoughts

Depression & When It Hits You Like Crazy

July 25, 2017



I don't remember when exactly I hear this questions, maybe some friend asked me before, maybe I over heard it on some old movie or TV Series, but the question was, " Why does every beautiful melody always sound so sad?"

I like sad songs, sad rhythm, sad melodies, say instruments. Does it make me masochist? Maybe. I don't really recognize me as a masochist person, but I leave it to you to decide. It doesn't matter to me what's the answer. Because neither of us know the right answer to answered the question if I am or if I am not.

From earliest stage of life, my biggest influence in music was my dad. English music, The Beatles, MLTR, Michael Jackson, Elvis, Chicago, Scorpion, ABBA, and much more. But later in life, I find my own self with my own music, from classic French, Punk, Jazz, Rock and Roll, every genre.

I find freedom and peace in music, especially singing (and painting and sketching and sewing - but later on I'll write on that part).

Even if I'm tired, really tired. When I got home and ready to sleep, I will sing. And suddenly I'm not tired anymore. Music is my painkiller.

I told you piece of my childhood story and it wasn't the great one. So, I need me some music, to get by. I didn't really have anyone to speak to, so during those time, I would just listen. Listen to other people's sadness. And realizing that I was okay, it's normal. Some people would understand as they had it too.

Things that made me happy were watching other people being happy. Like, someday, it's possible to be like them. Well, now I know the theory. When you're grateful, and decided to be happy, then you're happy.

But during those teenage years, I didn't know if it possible as I felt constant pain from others. But onced again, I listen to sad music, to feel related to other and not feeling alone.

And then I became a fan girl.

I'm fan girl to anything mainstream during 2005-2011, especially Jonas Brothers and The Script.  I always go crazy over them.

I must say, not so many rock band will move me to listen to their songs unless they're Alter Bridge or those classic Muse, The Killer, The Who, etc... But Linkin Park came on perfect timing. I listen to them on MTV Asia, for Numb and then I browse all their songs, and I fell for several of them. My favorites are Numb (yeah, everybody loves Numb), Leave Out All The Rest, New Divide, and What I've Done.

I stop watching MTV when I studied in Jakarta, so I lose track on what's new and what's not.
I don't remember exactly when, but when I watched Transformer then Iridescent played as the soundtrack.
I have no idea whose song is that, but I recognize the voice and suddenly I cried at the end of the movie as the lights was up. I browsed it, it was Iridescent by Linkin Park and I was right It was Chester's voice. I remember his voice.

Iridescent made me cry at the cinema. Just like what Numb and Leave Out All The Rest did to be before.

And then few days ago, I got news that Chester's gone. I cannot explain why, but I feel really sad. The only reasonable explanation is I was his fan. I grow up listening to his music and feel related at some point. Now he's gone. One of my friend agreed and said, "Another part of our childhood is gone."

To be honest, there was one part of life I'm thinking of end it all. Like I'm done with you people, I am so done dealing with all of these things. But at the same time I didn't want to be selfish as I have my part to play. If I won't do it for me, I will use myself to do it for someone. I told you, I'm happy if somebody else is happy because of me. I take it as my validation that I'm useful to make people at least smile. 

Just this morning, after my shift ended, I took a bus to home. I put my playlist on shuffle, on the way home Leave Out All The Rest played. I seed my tears on the bus. I tried to hold it, but I just couldn't. I feel so sad on a sunny bright and hot day. 

Maybe somehow you might think that I'm exaggerated and I have no rights to say this but that day, he broke my heart when he's gone. As if, my hope is crashing down.

I can't imagine how broke Talinda's heart now. But at least, you've found her, right? Something to be grateful. Because no one should just go without have the chance to meet their other half. Even short period of time would be just fine.



But then I listen to my playlist, he made it so beautiful. The message through his songs.

I dreamed I was missing, you were so scared

But no one would listen cause no one else cared



After my dreaming, I woke with this fear

What am I leaving, when I'm done here?



So if you're asking me, I want you to know


When my time comes, forget the wrong that I've done

Help me leave behind some reasons to be missed
And don't resent me
And when you're feeling empty, keep me in your memory
Leave out all the rest. Leave out all the rest



Don't be afraid

I've taken my beating, I've shared what I've made

I'm strong on the surface, not all the way through
I've never been perfect, but neither have you


Forgetting all the hurt inside you've learned to hide so well

Pretending someone else can come and save me from myself
I can't be who you are.



When you were standing in the wake of devastation

When you were waiting on the edge of the unknown

And with the cataclysm raining down
Insides crying, "Save me now!"
You were there, impossibly alone




Do you feel cold and lost in desperation?
You build up hope, but failure's all you've known
Remember all the sadness and frustration
And let it go. Let it go




And in a burst of light that blinded every angel
As if the sky had blown the heavens into stars
You felt the gravity of tempered grace
Falling into empty space
No one there to catch you in their arms





I'm tired of being what you want me to be
Feeling so faithless, lost under the surface

Don't know what you're expecting of me
Put under the pressure of walking in your shoes
(Caught in the undertow, just caught in the undertow)
Every step that I take is another mistake to you

I've become so numb, I can't feel you there
Become so tired, so much more aware
I'm becoming this, all I want to do
Is be more like me and be less like you



Can't you see that you're smothering me,
Holding too tightly, afraid to lose control?

'Cause everything that you thought I would be
Has fallen apart right in front of you.

And every second I waste is more than I can take.
And I know I may end up failing too.
But I know you were just like me with someone disappointed in you.



- Leave Out All The Rest, Iridescent, Numb (Linkin Park) -


Thank You,

Just anoher kid in the corner that feel the same about anything and listen to you a lot, most of the time.

You have another reason to be missed from me.
You might not the most successful person, or president of something or those great people in history, but you did help me to feel. 

You tried to fight your demon, and you lost.
But we are all know you tried so hard and encourage us while you're not even the strongest one.

So, again thank you.


RIP Chester Bennington 




Design

PROJECT HOUSE : Fixing Before Leaving (Again).

July 14, 2017

"Can we paint those walls outside Kak? This house looks like haunted house from outside," 
- Vinca, 22, maybe single.


Let me tell you the story of our house. When I was kid, I lived in rented house for years before my mom decided to buy house under her name (behind my dad's back, of course, hahaha). Because my dad always believe that we won't stay forever in Batam Island, he wanted us to move to his family house (read: my grandma's house, which is HIS, but.. it's where my grandma's lived).

Besides, we moved from Merauke, to West Java, then to Batam because dad decided to work in Singapore, not far away in Middle East or Rusia or Hongkong like he used to be when he was still single. But sometimes he went to Malaysia, Thailand or Vietnam too. He said that he wanted to be closer to his family, then bring my mom from West Java to Batam. (This explain a lot about my stamps collections from all over the place that my dad went before, I always asked for stamps... If I knew that they sell postcard too, then I will ask him to bring me postcard and foreign currency along with those stamps).

It was roughly 6 years we lived in rented houses. I love the neighborhood, and I was a free child. Morning at school, afternoon at small park played with other kids or cycled our bicycles. Oh, yes, I always skipping the nap time and sneaked in to the garden then jumped out our fence. I did get scold a lot from my mother, but I love playing outside than take a nap. (Now, I prefer nap... long, long, long hours of nap).

He was so furious at my mom when he found out that mom's buying house in Batam. He told her it's unnecessary. But mom always know best. So, let me tell you about mom's logic, at least my mom's logics.

  • When you marry someone, dumb impatient single men but he makes a lots of money, do not let him throw away money only for party (Trust me, he did that A LOT). Help him saving for his mother, his family (especially when he is the oldest brother, older sibling tend to be the man of the family and take care of their younger siblings). This include sign up for children's education fund (my mom asked my dad to signed Allianz Insurance for my education fund plan, help a lot) and buying property under her name.
  • Why under her name? First, dad will be upset if he knows (it's like a world war III when he found out, I remember). Second, Dad was working overseas, he didn't have time to take care all the paper works. He always hate it dealing with people and paper works, so he tend to pay other guy to make it done faster  (Yeah, definitely impatient and this is not good for cost saving efficient). Third, if there will be other bitches who will try to ruin everything, then the house is safe for the children still. 
  • My mom's logic include : Boys will always be boys and you'll never know. First they will tell you that the moon and the star are yours then next day, he will be missing. Just help him to be responsible in 'other ways' as providing and secure on what's important first. Yes, this include let him go with other bitches if he wanted to, but always let him know that the key is still under the doormat. 
  • Boys will love their children but sometimes doesn't know how to love them properly. Other bitches sometimes don't know how to do it better too, unless it's theirs. But they can always try.
  • I believe in you, but not them.

Really long story short. Have nothing to everything then in the end of the day we moved back to my mom's house. 

Honestly, when we have to move from my rented house to our first house, I feel so lonely because I have no friends in the new neighborhood, so I prefer to be at school longer and maybe just stay at room 24 hours, watching MTV and reading comic, manga, or novels or take a course after school and more study.

But it was peaceful. I still had my balance.

draft for master plan

Then after mom left. Dad bought new house, the better one in an instant. I didn't even know he had a lot of money. He always said no to everything I wanted then I don't remember when exactly I never really want anything from anyone. Because I'm tired of asking if I already know the answer would be always NO.

I really didn't want to move to other place even it's more better. But then I had to join them, nothing really changed but I just wanted to be far away. I got accepted to Rafless Design Institute in Singapore, but dad said he won't let me become Fashion Designers (too bad), he wanted me to become like him and sign up for Marine-Merchant Academy in Jakarta or Makassar. 

He was like, I have friends in bla bla bla... I think you can get in... bla bla bla...

Of course I said NO... Are you crazy? Me, going to Marine? Me, working on a ship as a captain ? 
NO WAY MAN... 너 미쳤어?)

I am more attracted to arts and anything beautiful and weird that isn't related to Marine Academy. So, the next day, I just choose to go to study communications at Uni, and threaten my dad with my letter of acceptance from the university.

"Hey, I got accepted. If you don't let me go this time, I will go to my mom, and covert to Muslim, and marry some guy from the village. Then the next year, probably I will become mother too. And there's no way I'm going to Marine Academy. Not now, not ever!"

Then I finally free... until they asked me to come 'home'.

I was really happy to live alone. And I found my own home, which is my best friends, my routine and everything else that's far away from Batam.

There's nothing left for me there...



But then you're growing up. You should know what's the difference of freedom of youth and truly living your life without regrets. I decided to come back, giving all of them second chances. It never always works but it went in an okay way so far.

Long story short, we moved back to our first house which is my mom's and it's like haunted house ^_^ because we didn't live there for long time. Everything in there is old.

When Miranda don't want to move in with Steve, because Steve lives in Brooklyn.

I never wanted to stay in Batam, but right now I guess the right decision is to stay. And in order for making me stay, I need to fix them, so when I'm gone, things are okay too, even without me.

It's like when I left past relationship, I have to have disclosure, full disclosure.
Or when I left for my past job, I need to fix the system and make sure people know how to get it done without me.

Like Nanny McPhee," There is something you should understand about the way I work. When you need me but do not want me, then I must stay. When you want me but no longer need me, then I have to go. It's rather sad, really, but there it is."





roughly calculations for the needs of how much (kg) or (lt) paint that I need for living room. You gotta be cost effective for everything. ^_^

Now I need to save some money for this whole project. I might start to look for best places to shop first.  Give it a year? Okay then, will be starting on August, after my vacation.


Kasih.


Slowly, slowly...
One step at a time...
Slowly...

Design

To Afraid To Be Greedy & Being Too Much

July 10, 2017


#WinterIsComing!
I've spend almost 72 hours to watch 6 seasons of Game of Throne that inspired by The War of Roses in history, except with the Dragon and White Walkers. I've downloaded them since in university since 1st season premier, like 2013 or 2014  but I lost them in folders (And my folders like a series of junk files, I have no idea even if I use 'search feature', I cannot find the right keyword to find those files).

And 4 years later, (...)

IT WAS AMAZING!

Since the end of season 6 revealed that Jon Snow isn't Ned Stark's bastard, he is the only living son of Rhaegal Targaryen, maybe still a bastard too, but he has Stark's and Targaryen's blood, which is he have the back up and support from people from the North and HE IS TARGARYEN. 

If looking back to The War of Roses, Dany and Jon should be married to end the war, but she is his aunt. No idea if incest relationship is allowed, just so weird.

If Targaryen, Lannister, Stark should marry eachother, then.. probably :

- Sansa will accept the fate that she and Tyrion still married.( North and West)

- Or Tyrion could die, so Sansa will marry Lord Baelish ( I don't know, he's good looking despite his manipulative brain, and he is the step father of the Sweet Robin, the Lord of Eyrie, Warden of the East)  (North and East)

-Or Arya Stark should marry Robin. She's the knight while Robin didn't even know how to be a men. They complete each other. Too bad, I love her to be with the guy who has many faces (Jagen H'ghar).
(North and East)

Jon Snow, Lord Commander could marry anyone from South, but I don't know, Queen Margaery is already dead on explosion. So, anyone from House of Tyrell should be okay. But he's the Lord Commander of the Night's Watch, so He can't be married to anyone. back to square one. He loved that Wildlings' girl though. Why not? He is the King of The North now until... maybe later when Bran appear for the throne.  But Bran is the Warg. I think he wouldn't mind Jon to take the throne, Bran is a good boy.

Lannister family is so fucked up, nobody want to marry them, except Tyrion, Tyrion is MY FAVORITE. Cercei is so annoying and Jamie is part of Kingsguard, so he cannot married to anyone.

- Dany as the Mother of Dragon and the last Mad King's legitimate daughter for the throne and also the true Targaryen could marry Ser Jorah, from Mormont... because I love Ser Jorah, he looks like my sweet bubu . (West  - North)


OH GOSH, I AM SUCH A NERD!!! (but I do care so much >_<  I want to have my own Valyrian's sword on my wall now... Oh Gosh, whyyy?)



Too Much of Them, Only One of Me

Okay, stop all the interruption now, I want to talk about being greedy.

Lately I feel very very very uncomfortable with myself being greedy and exposed too much with all the social medias I have. 

I'm not the type of person who love to hang out every week, or every two weeks, or ... nah, I don't really like going out. If I must go, I prefer to have my own me time eating fruit salad by the beach, or netflix time. I feel bad about refusing offers to go out, so I just want to hide for awhile from society. If I keep appearing on someone's else timeline, then they will text me and ask me to hang out. And the truth is, I DON'T WANT TO GO. Except for special occasions.

To be honest, I don't even like to step out of my room or even taking garbage outside. Anything that requires me to wear pants, bra or sandals. I hate it.

Sometimes I just wanted to lose my number. or my phone.... hahaha.
My routine are replying emails, cooking, cleaning, texting my group, answering call from mother and texting bubu. Boring, but still exhausted by the end of the day.

There's this advise by older generation, saying, "If someone ask you out, just go out and experience! Don't stay at home"

Me : I don't have time to go out, I love staying at home. Napping make me happy as I couldn't have them when I'm working.

Thankful : Can See, Can't Touch!

Have you ever see something, taste something, experience something you like, really like but only happen for certain period of times or several different occasions?

You will be thankful as if you feel how your life has been blessed so far.

But somehow, it's like a drugs. You want more of it. It's addictive to you.

My rule : Anything too much, is not good.

So, right now I am afraid. I am afraid that I will lose myself become addictive with certain of things. I need to reevaluate them. I used to be strong, this thing make me weak, but I couldn't help it.

Well, I don't do drugs, but anyway, I don't like my self to feel all these constant need. I need to stop and gain my self control back.

Because for me, to hear good news, see good things, taste something, and experience one thing good in life, it's okay too. I should be thankful. 


The most amusing men I love to watch on the show.

So, thank you,

Kasih

Design

Serious Talk?

July 06, 2017



Last month my sister told me that she wanted to learn how to sew, and we are end up scrolling on our timeline looking for sewing machine, of course the low budget one with the fixed pattern. She wanted to learn how to sew because she wanted to try to have scarf business. Simple idea, buying fabrics and then make scarf out of it.If friends like it, then sell it to them.

As for me, I LOVE Kain Lilit and Kebaya (Indonesian traditional dress). So, I wanted to buy those Batik fabric and make my own kain lilit. As for Kebaya, I think I will just buy them online. 



Since November 2016, I have a plan to spend more time to paint and write and sing and taking photographs but work and taking care of other things always demanding more of my time. So, when I do have a time, I am already exhausted. Do not even mention laundry that I haven't done yet. 

Well, since it's already July 2017, I will try to be more focus of my goals. Doing these things already make me happy. OMG, I'm so easy...... 





I remember the other day, I have major headache and heartburn due to work, sleeping schedule and forgot to eat. Oh, I always forget to eat. I remember in high school, my parent have to brought me to emergency room in hospital in the middle of dawn. And I was so pissed off because of that, I skipped the Physics Examination and have to go to Teacher's office to have the following exam, alone. 

So, yeah... that's just fun fact about me. Anyway, there won't be any serious talk here. Just want to share my water color painting using nothing but leftover water color and 20 cent made in China brush during a long night.


Well, this is actually the behind the scene picture : (Yes, I'm so messy and dirty because I used my take away juice cup after finished all the juice... I feel kinda proud because I'm using only one brush for everything. Don't ask, I've no idea where I put all my brushes).








Kasih